Despair
Sunday, September 24th, 2006Well work is still the same as usual but although the IMF is over but for our team, work load is still the same or should I say even more. Nowsaday all of us are even more stress and pressure due to something which happen to our team. Think its not a good year for us. Last time when we’re rostered under the train rostered, its like striking the first prize as its a easy job but nowsday, ever since they start to implement some stuffs, we PSOs had to endure with a lot of things and do even more than the others.
Another thing is that last week another colleague of mine had tendered her resignation letter and resign whereas another one is still waiting for her official letter for her to have internal transfer to another organization. Although there’s people coming in but it seems that the number of people leaving the service is getting more.
Then recently also not feeling that well due to having a sore throat for quite some time back. Hence at times when it feel too dry or what, I’ll start to cough non stop hence now where ever I go, I had to bring along a bottle of water or sweets just in case my throat gets dry. But anyway no need to ask me to go see doctor as it has been a long since I get this as it’ll just come and go whenever it likes.. haha so just endure..
Yesterday attended a briefing at HTA for my NP stuffs in the late morning then after the briefing, headed down to Jurong Point for lunch with some of my friends. After the lunch, I need to rush off for work but think that is the first time where cabs are so rare that either the cabs are on call or not available. Then all the taxi stands are all packed with people.
Hence no choice I get to get out of the area trying my luck at somewhere else as I’m already late for work. But when I reached Jurong East, what greeted me is the same, hence no choice but have to call for a cab. Think that is the first time when one wants a cab there isn’t any. Then when I reached my workplace, I was struck at the traffic jam again although I’m able to see my workplace but yet its like so far.
Haiz think recently these few days are not my days hence hoping for the better in times to come. In order not to spoil the mood of the others, shall stop at here and update again the next time.
"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation. From the desperate city you go into the desperate country, and have to console yourself with the bravery of minks and muskrats. A stereotyped but unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind. There is no play in them, for this comes after work. But it is a characteristic of wisdom not to do desperate things."